I've finally taken a hobby of mine seriously. I'm usually into arts and crafts and stuff but recently, I've devoted much of my free time for photography and I like it.

I've signed up at Digital Photographer Philippines. While bumping into different forums, I've recently joined three different photography groups. One is for young photographers under the age of 25 called Young Photographers or YoPho, another for ladies only, Digital Pinay Photographers, and for Makati people called Makati Camera Club.

Well, I haven been that much active with each group but I'm trying to be, given the chances I get.

I'm still trying to fulfill my dreams, well, one-by-one. I can't seem to find the strength and courage to at least try to fulfill them. I got my courage to pursue photography with the help of my mom.

I wonder how I'm going to manage to fulfill these dreams...

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I've been a bum for almost 4 weeks now, and from wishing too much, I've got calls from various companies which I don't like. I know I shouldn't complain but blah. I would've wanted some other job that had a more creative atmosphere.

I've already been accepted to one office-type job where I get minimum wage and blah blah blah. I just don't think I'll grow more as an animator with that job. I... know it's for experience and stuff but... gack.

If only some production house would've offered a better job (and compensation).

I hate 8-5's. Actually, I hate morning jobs. I don't wake up in the morning. Am I being too demanding?

Sigh.

I'm confused. Do I wait, or do I take it? If I take it, will I be successful in it? If not, where would I go?

Sigh. Sigh.

Oh well, a job's a job. It's for starters. At least I have another thing to add to my work experience, right? Right?

I guess all entry jobs get low salaries (unless you're a SUPER MEGA ULTRA ALPHA OMEGA genius and talent, which I'm not).

I still plan to take up photography both as a career and a hobby. I love to take pictures. Problem is, will I get the Nikon D60 or the Canon 450D? It'll be my first DSLR. Hmm... Decisions, decisions.

I'll get through this. I'll earn enough cash to save up for a training session at an Animation Company and where there for a while. After that, I'll move on... I wish.

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School is finally over. When I say over, it's actually over. It's time for me to get a job.

Sigh. With the skills I have now, who would or can give me a job? I'm not quite confident with my skills but I'm still willing to see where I can go.

I'm not happy, but I'm trying to forget about it. It's just pretty annoying, that's all.

I'm not feeling well. I can't breathe easily. Sigh.

I seriously need to get a job soon or I'll go nuts with boredom. I need a job. Please, help me? Anything along Graphic Design or Animation or Production would do.

I'm a fresh graduate. This is hard.

I got to... sigh.

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I've submitted a revision of my thesis (done all in one week which was supposed to be done in 6 months). So I'm very much UN-stressed right now. Wee!

It's been a while since I've done something worthwhile - something I've done for myself and not for school so I need to tweak on some skills.

Finals are going to be over today! Last one - Women's Studies. Our prof said it's going to be an easy test so I'm pretty sure it's true. Finished the "final exam" on Professional Ethics slash Philosophy class yesterday and that's quite a load to accomplish.

Portfolio classes are finally done and I'm pretty sure I passed. Wee! Well, prof said everyone passed with a few exceptions (not me included).

We're just waiting for the presentation of our thesis due next week. I'm tired of tweaking my thesis since I've already done my part for the revisions. God, I had to change target audiences in one week so sue me if I can't do 6 months work in that time.

Relaxing mode are coming! I can't wait! Just a few (3 to be exact) weeks and we'll finally be able to escape from hell... err... school! Yahoo!

Eh, chapter "Work" will have to wait until then. Jobs, anyone?

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I failed my thesis defense. Miserably.

So as you all can guess, I'm in a bit of depression right now. So if you're looking for inspiration, you can't find it here.

I can't work, but I can't stop working either. It's a cycle.

How did I ever get myself into this mundane ritual of working and sleeping and working? Where did all my hopes and dreams go?

I miss MY life where I choose MY OWN paths and MY OWN decisions.

Sigh... Thank you for the 30k+ views. It lessens my sadness a bit.

When I get over this, I'll definitely spend my time watching films... ALL DAY.

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